When is a boulder not ok?

YES space, NO space, and the purposes of public art

Anna Gray with Ryan Wilson Paulsen


I was walking at dusk on a cool night in late October, looking for a Jamaican restaurant that didn’t exist. I was young and with a boy I liked who was from the East coast, and who wore a hand-sewn satchel under his sweaters to hold stacks of ephemera that he’d anonymously distribute everywhere he went. His ‘free write me books’ were a form of public art that consisted of short stories (somewhat true) about people and places that he knew and loved. They were simple: just one folded page, with 3 pictures, 3 paragraphs, and a PO box encouraging readers to write back. One time I did; that was part of how we met and ended up together that night searching for a meal that would remind him of home. After about an hour of following hunches, we ended up hungry in front of a Whole Foods.

We gave up the search and settled for a picnic of havarti, apples, and bread under the closest grove of trees. We sat on a small triangle of hard-packed dirt tucked above the cut of the four-lane freeway as it curved through the NW part of the city. The cedars there held the hum of the road and caught cones of car light in their branches.We weren’t disappointed; we had pocket knives and a few napkins and there was a thrill just to finding each other and a little free space in the city to improvise an open-air dinner.  I don’t remember a no trespassing sign, but maybe there was one. I don’t remember what we talked about. I do remember, despite protests, slipping a fold of dollar bills for our shared dinner into the pocket of his tape-patched down jacket. It was the first of many meals that we’d share together over the next 20 years. 


Since that night, our lives and neighborhoods have changed. We navigate the city differently now, but we still pass by that dinner spot and feel fondly for how easy it was then to find an in-between space—a diagonal pocket in the cement grid of buildings and traffic. We’ve seen other people (and animals too) using the same spot: resting, eating, and  congregating, squatting to pee, storing food, or pitching a tent and sleeping.


Sometime in the 2010s, a chain-link fence went up around the perimeter, enclosing most of it and hindering human access. More recently, a carpet of boulders was added and the cedars now stand choked amidst dozens of irregular stones tetris’d tightly together and secured to the ground with a thick layer of pasty gray cement. These boulders take up all the available space. It's so thorough and so thoroughly lacking in tenderness.